Entrance exam (CCS University) or mockery

I had this amazing experience when i tried to take admission in LLB course of CCS university. They advertised that for Self financed colleges there will be entrance exam . So i applied , even bought a book to prepare and finally appeared in the entrance exam. I got around 80th rank in my subject. By now everything was fine.

So i was happy with my score and went to many colleges to enquire about the admission. And surprisingly no private college asked for my score ( and they did not even bother that i appeared in entrance or not), they were ready to give me admission if i was ready to pay the fees. Simple mathematics ... :) and i was a fool. I told them that i appeared in CET and they told me that it will only save your 300 rs. i thought .... really because i applied with a draft of 500 rs . So even monetary wise i was in a loss of 200 rs . So i applied , bought a book , prepared, appeared in the exam , waited for the result and then went for admission. While i could directly go for admission as fees is the only consideration ... which i still have to submit.

One more point, the fees recommened by University for private colleges is approximately 13000 rs while most of the colleges are charging between 20000-27000 in the name of infrastructure. Let me complete my LLB and i will sue these colleges first :) .... tan tanaaaaaaaan .....

Should we compromise ?

I get to face one issue recently . As you know we were able to register Swa Jagriti and are now in preparatory mode for starting operations. Few friends told me that they have contacts and can get us funding. Now i was excited as funding is the critical part of any NGO and it will lessen one part of my burden. But there was a glitch. Almost all of them underlined one condition for this :- we will have to pay part of donation to the person in power... as bribe. Here comes the question mark.

There are two facets in my view... of this situation. One facet says that we boast of honesty in our operations. There are few baselines we never want to cross. We decided that we will work with honesty, transparency and certain ethics. If we pay bribe then probably we will be following the path of most NGOs and relevancy of our existence will cease. In this way(by not paying bribe and declining the amount) the progress might be slow but it will be solid.

The second facet says that what is important is best utilisation of money, not how it comes. Suppose 100 rs are at stake, we pay back 20 as bribe and get 80 in our hand. Now our concern should be to best utilise 80 rs because if we deny, someone else will grab opportunity and even these 80 rs might go waste. So while in first case out of 100 , at lease 80 rs were available for genuine expenditure ( as misuse at our end will strictly be ZERO) in second case even these 80 rs are doubtful. Though this view is not honest enough it supports that we must implement honesty at our end and ensure best utilisation of over all money.

Both logic are sound and i am at present not able to decide which way to go though i am little biased towards the first option. But it id difficult to ignore the practicality of second option. Lets see which way we will go as these things are currently not on in the way and will come face to face at least 5-6 months later. Probably we will decide on case to case basis...

Working for Profit vs Non Profit

It was the difference i experienced when i was trying to get the formalities done for Swa Jagriti. In this field never go with the verbal enthusiasm shown by anybody. It has happened with me again and again that i believed people for their words. I had reason too, to believe as i had seen them working professionally and they were exceptional. But i don't know what happens to their social commitment when it comes to do something tangible. Its frustrating but its true. They will take responsiblity but will excuse on the last moment.

Also at the same time i would like to say that sometimes you get help from people you never thought of. You never believed but they come forward and deliver but unfortunately it is very rare. So the point to learn is that expand the things only to the scale which you feel that you can do even if no one comes to support you. Keep doing and expand only when people prove their worthiness for social commitment .

Naxalite Problem

I have been tracking this issue from a long time and found that we take it very lightly. If terrorist comes and kills few people or a bomb blast takes place we make a huge cry. Why .... ? Because we can blame a foreign hand and feel happy. It gives us immense pleasure when other countries console us and praise our kindness .

But these days, frequently we get a news somewhere in a corner that 20 policemen killed in a naxal attack. We have a look and turn the page. Are these lives of no value ? What will happen to the life of dependants over them? In these cases usually the death of one person kills the entire family . Or we neglect because the root of this problem lies in the ineffectiveness of our administrators. Don't know the exact reason but it pains me to find these news very frequently and with noone paying much attention.

And more shameful is that even in the cases of much attention the results are zero. After 26/11 we made huge cry. The mumbains even came out to show their anger after that. But our memory is short lived and when it was actually the time to give way to anger (ie election day) more than half of Mumbai rested at home. Finally we have forgotten what happened and will not awake till another incidence happens . The life will continue ... but remember for some people it will never be same again ...